This was entirely too much for a Twitter thread. I’ve been in some mental crisis lately thinking about a serious path to writing constantly on this blog and growing readership for the benefit of everyone here involved with the whole Lodestone project. They are putting their energy in here as well. It’s hard to not want to quit when you’re not big and have no formal background in reporting or journalism, but have ideas to communicate with the world and with aspirations of growing an audience in ways unrelated to podcasting (although that could be in the works, we are not sure if podcasting is too oversaturated yet–albeit with excellent content).
I’ve contemplated quitting and shutting down the blog, but I think that was a bit of an overreaction. I want to practice writing more because I like it and because I have shit to say that I wanna tell more people than just my friends and immediate family about—and I want to do this in a not-so-stuffy-academic-y way and in a way that people will find more engaging and interesting. I realized more practice, and therefore improving my own skills and communicating what I want would not happen if I did not have some creative outlet to express my thoughts and vent about why economics and capitalism are annoying. I was always extremely talkative growing up and still excited over topics that I’m interested in, so I’ll always have shit to say that can’t always be relegated to social media. I can only complain so much to people in my immediate circle, and I can only get so much out on Twitter. Also professors don’t really have the time to talk shop on a whim and for unlimited amounts of time.
Although I’ve liked the topics I’ve written about, mostly antitrust because it’s my primary area of research in school, I feel somewhat restricted on this blog when I write about it—which is ridiculous because this is my blog and I can say whatever the fuck I want to about anything on this planet, like how much I enjoyed rewatching Dr. Stone and how I would compare different coffee creamers I’ve tried recently (and have the excel spreadsheet for).
But a mistake in trying to do this was trying to appeal to the same audience that are responsible for accepting my would-be articles in a journal or like if I was submitting a publication to my department. In doing so, I think it isolates an already niche-ish audience and makes the content appear inaccessible because I have the tendency to write everything with similar language (and maybe dryness?) to that of an academic paper. I want more people to read about cool or relevant topics here and really allow my words to reflect my personality, and I want to eliminate any opportunity for self-sabotaging this blog before it’s had a fair shot to grow and shine.
I also felt restricted because I tried to fit the mold/assume some identity of some editor or staff writer for some fictional magazine I don’t work for. Instead of just offering my genuine commentary and perspective on relevant topics I think are important, I think I’ve just set myself up to tackle the process of posting from the perspective that it is an assignment, and in a lot of ways I feel like some posts just belabor the point other scholars are already well established in talking about from a standard economics point of view. And even though it’ll be relevant to future posts, right now there are far more writers with expert knowledge in antitrust and on the frontiers of research who write good stuff and you would be wise to read their words.
Going forward, I’m going to try and cover and write about a broader range of political economy/politics/culture/literature stuff that seems genuinely cool to me and inspires me to actually write way more often. I want to write from my own political perspective and talk about and argue for things I’m talking about most days with people that never make it in a post. Hopefully new posts are well received and are interesting to people. This new ethos to create content definitely feels more liberating, fun, and organic. It is time to prioritize content, taking an honest look at what we want to become and how we want to grow.
I enjoy writing and want to be much better at it, and the only way to do that is to practice and publish my ideas for the world to see and hope to get some good criticism in return. If it sucks early on, then I can accept that it just sucks.This is okay. Some of my goals are to keep improving the effectiveness of my own writing and strength of my arguments, and also the quality of the blog’s content in general. I can accept that becoming a perfectly effective and interesting and clear communicator won’t happen over night.
I’m not sure if we’ll ever get to half a million subscribers or followers or podcast or whatever the metric may be, but we can—at the minimum—guarantee to never publish why doing an imperialism is good in order to please the stonks line, nor will we be NIMBY shills or dipshit globe emoji people, nor do we care remotely about the sanctity of existing, oppressive institutions or the longevity of the ghouls on the Supreme Court.
If you’ve made it to the end, we appreciate you for being here. Thank you, reader, for reading, and I hope you enjoy what we have to offer in the future. We’re manifesting positive change.